Lets Get Ready to Rumble

So my guy and I had a fight lastnight.  While I was at my friends beauty school getting my hair done none the less!  It was all through email and before I went to bed lastnight thought it was over and we were okay.  I knew I would  have 2 nasty emails waiting for me at work this morning that he told me about lastnight which is what started the fight in the first place.  Well I pretty much already knew what they were going to say but instead of just deleting them straight away I decided to ready them.  Well then I got pissed again and sent him a couple nasty emails.  I feel bad now.  I know we will work it out and everything will be all hunky dory again but I'm getting a bit worried about homecoming now. 

I have envisioned homecoming being this joyous event of me picking him up at the airport and going straight home to spend some quality time together before the responsibilities of the real world interrupt.  And I'm sure the first day will be like that.  But now I'm worried about after that. 

I'm worried that we won't be able to get back into pre deployment grove and that we will constantly fight and bicker with eachother.  I'm worried that even though he wasn't around any casualties that he still will come back and have some issues to workout from being gone.  I'm worried he won't like how I'm doing things and constantly critize that will drive me to packing up all my stuff, chloe, splitting up the pups and leaving.  I can handle criticism fairly well but if I'm criticized about anything and everything I do that will put me over the edge.

I'm probably just over analyzing it all.  Which I'm really good at lol.  And probably because he has been working on his shift for an hour now and I haven't received my "Good Morning" email from him :(.

But here is my new "Do" for your viewing pleasure :)

There are some subtle highlights in it.  There was a issue with some of the highlights processing so you can't really see unless your right up in it lol.
  




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Update

So I have not been blogging much lately.  Nothing of interest has happened to warrant a blog.  All I have been doing is working and taking care of Chloe and the pups.  I spent the weekend cleaning up the front yard and backyard for homecoming.  I mowed grass for the first time on Sunday and let me tell you I would rather clean the bathrooms then mow the lawn lol. 

Oh wait I have to do that anyways :p.

Half of the grass was dead so it wasn't as bad as it could have been but still.  I'm all for planting but I have no green thumb and have no business maintaining a lawn.  I then broke up the ground in the dead areas, raked the grass in the dried up yellow areas, created holes in the yellow areas and spread out new sead.  Yeah I'm definetely feeling the burn today.  That ground was hard!

I'm sure I will be mowing atleast 1 or 2 more times before my guy is back :(.

The front yard wasn't as busy.  Just lots of weeding and blowing out all the leaves from the rocks. 

After we (my little sister and I) finished the backyard we rounded up all the pups and they each got a much needed bath.  They weren't too happy about it but it made a world of difference in their coats.  Then the 2 young pups spent a good part of the afternoon lounging in the middle of the grass soaking up the sun while the 2 older pups lounged in the house. 

Chloe and I are off to see Walking with Dinosaurs Wednesday night.  I'm sure she will get a good kick out it.  She's into animals so I don't see why not.  Then the new 3D Dragon movie comes out this weekend so I'm thinking of taking her to see that since everytime she sees the preview she goes on about how she wants to see it.

So yeah nothing interesting going on.  Just life and waiting for Homecoming ;)




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Ugh!!!

I am to the point where I feel like these braces are never going to come off.  At my last ortho appointment last week my chain came off again.  Now thats 4 chains I've gone through in exactly 1 year.  I'm beginning to think that this adult canine tooth of mine is not ever going to come down.  I have an appointment with a different Oral Surgeon next week.  I wouldn't be too upset if he doesn't think this tooth is ever going come down and there is no need for another surgery.  Honestly the numbing needles that will go into the roof of my mouth during the surgery are no picnic and I'd rather not go through it again.  I'm going to give him the run down of everything that has happened and all the money that I've paid out and see what he thinks.  I'm seriously thinking of pulling my old ortho and oral surgeon on to Judge Judy and see what she thinks of the whole ordeal.  I think I could get my money back and more for pain and suffering.  I'm also thinking of getting a 2nd opinion with a different ortho.  I'm beginning to think that both my orthos don't/didn't know what they are/were doing.  My teeth look so much better since I started the treatment but this giant gap where my adult canine should be is throwing it all off and I'm just sick and tired of it. 



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I can't think of anything

to title this post lol.  Oh well.  I'll just jump head first in and see where I go. 

So we are down to 30 something days!!!  I'm so flippin excited.  I still have a ton of stuff to do around the house to get it all nice and tiddy but if I don't get it all done no biggie.  I'm sure he won't care how cluttered the house is just as long as he is actually at home. 

But he has been doing a bit of shopping while he has been away.  I received a fondu set yesterday :) 

We went to The Melting Pot for our 2 year anniversary and boy was it yummy.  If anyone has the chance to go there then you better hop on it.  Its so yummy and so much fun.  I can't wait to fondu with him when he gets back.  Which I better hop on it and get some recipes together for it.

He has also purchased a heavy duty steam cleaner!!!! 

I'm almost as excited for the steamer as I was for the washer and dryer we got  last year.  I can finally get my grout all nice and clean without having to get down on my knees to scrub, scrub and scrub some more just to find out I have a white film on it.  It also comes with attachments to clean the tile.  Apparently he has bought some other stuff for me that I'm not to know what they are till they are delivered.   Which I just checked and something is being delivered today.  Guess I'll have to see what it is when I get home tonight.

I think he thinks the gifts will make me feel better about him being gone.  Which in all honesty not really.  I would rather him be home driving me crazy then spoiling me from thousands of miles away.  Oh well atleast the gifts we will use around the house.  Now if I can just keep myself busy cleaning and working for the next month it will all be downhill from there :)




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Writing

So I finally did it today.  I wrote my first handwritten letter to my guy and popped it in the mail.  Yeah I know I am about 2.5 months late.  I should have been doing it from day one.  But he said he didn't care if I actually wrote a letter as long as emails were coming his way.  And boy have I made sure he has emails.  I shoot him a email every morning.  Its the first thing I do at home on the weekends in the morning and the first thing I do during the week when I get into the office. 

I went and saw Dear John lastnight and I think thats what got me started.  I have been wanting to actually sit down and write him a letter from day one.  But since he said it didn't really matter I thought emails were a bit better.  But seeing all the letter writting that went on in that movie and knowing how I feel when I get a letter that someone actually took the time to sit down and write made me feel bad.  Why did I not start this sooner? 

There is no way to know if he will actually write me back.  I don't want to tell him in an email.  I would prefer it be a surprise. 

But how I hope he does though :)

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Happy Early Valentines Day!!!!!!!

My Valentines Day came on Thursday!!!  I went to lunch to run a couple errands and I arrived back at the office to this with a love note attached.  Aww I have such a good guy :)

I hope everyone has a good day full of love on Sunday.  Especially the spouses who have to be away from their loved one!!!!

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Changes

So since I started reading blogs of other mil spouses I have noticed that some of the women leave their loved ones boots just where they were left during the deployment until their hunny returns.  I didn't do that.  I put his up in the garage to get them out of the way.  Since he moved in with me he has always left atleast one pair of his boots out in the open and I'm always stubbing my toes or me feet on them.  I thought about it the other day and I felt bad that I put them away.  I have changed alot of stuff since he left and he says it's ok but I don't know how he will actually feel when he gets back and sees all the changes and has to adapt to them.

But I did notice one thing that hasn't changed.  On D day he left one of this ACU coats hanging on our metal head board.  Over the last couple of months I have been rearranging and organizing things of his but I never thought to put the coat away.  I recently got a new bed and I tossed his coat on the dresser and its been there the last week.  Well I was in there cleaning again and got through the pile of towels, blankets, and Chloes stuffed animals down to his jacket.  I automatically hung it up on the new metal headboard and went on with my business.  After a few minutes it hit me.  That is the one thing that hasn't really changed since he left. 

So even though it doens't match my bedroom decor it will stay put till he gets back.  Its the one thing that I don't want to change....... 

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