Emotional Rollercoaster

So I'm looking outside and its all cloudy and rainy.  I usually love it when its like this and this morning I did.  But at this moment in time not so much.  I'm having my daily email chat convo with my guy and reading a blog of another mil spouse out there that was going through her first deployment a couple years ago.  Everything that she was feeling pre and up until her guy deployed and the first week after was how I felt to a "T". 

The last few weeks I have been concerned for my mom and her cancer that I haven't really had a chance to pay attention to how I am feeling about this deployment.  Infact earlier this morning I was thinking about how easy the last few weeks have been on me with this deployment.  I guess that was because I had something else equal to my guys safety to worry about.  But after reading part of that blog the depression and loneliness just settled right back in. 

Talk about an emotional rollercoaster.

We are days away from the half way point and it feels like it will be ages before I get to be in his arms again.  I'm ready for my hormones to chill out and it to be all over with.